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Still feeling dazed and confused. I'm in limbo about life, love, men, and women. Things used to come so easy for me. What happened? I've become so lazy and self-serving, while the kind, giving part lies beneath. I don't trust people and virtually wait for them to screw things up or me over. So sad :-(

I really don't know what to do about it either. My heart remembers too many disappointments and bullshitters. Why would anyone else act differently? The Cinderella Complex (a great book). Bored and lonely is no way to live. As people continue to leave the earth unexpectedly, you would think I would earn a greater respect for life and love. I try, but the truth is I am jaded, untrusting, uptight, hesitant, guarded. Doomed.